ツアーも無事終わった数日後、気が緩んでしまったからなのか突然の腹痛に冷や汗をかきながらベッドで過ごしていると、痛みがだんだん右下に移動し1人のたうち回りながら痛みに耐えていたのだが、やはり変だと思い朝には病院に行こうと決意しマネージャーに連絡すると、直ぐに病院に行った方がいいということになり救急病院へ。
採血と尿検査の後にCTを撮ってもらった結果、急性虫垂炎…まあ、俗に言う盲腸だった。
気が抜けたからなのか体内に細菌が入って炎症を起こし、まさかこの歳で盲腸とは…年齢は関係ないらしいが、何となく。
ツアーが終わると、何かしら体調崩したりしてる気がする。
まあ、それくらい酷使してる自覚は正直ある。
毎日の体作り、太りやすいのでそれをカバーする食事制限やツアー前ツアー中の禁酒、その全てはツアーの為であり一本一本のliveの為、その日その時の最高の自分で本番を迎えたいが為にやれる事の全てを献げる必要があると思ってやっているだけであって、全ては勿論自分の為。
ですが、楽しみに来てくれるファンの皆さんからはお金も時間も頂いてる訳だから、どのliveも最高の今をお見せしたい。
ただ、その為に辛い毎日をツアー中は過ごす。
なので、live一本にかける情熱が絶対的に昔より大きく変わった気がしてます。
いつまで演れるかわからないし、演れなくなったとしたら最高の姿のままで終わらせたい。
その覚悟でツアーをやらせてもらうと、無駄に出来るliveが一本もないので、不思議と精神的には凄く安定する。
なのでツアーが終わったなら…どうなってもいいや。
とりあえず、今回は早期の状況で病院に行けたので薬で散らすことが出来ましたので、ご心配無くです。
Toshiya
A few days after the tour was over, I was lying in bed in a cold sweat because of a sudden stomach ache (perhaps due to me letting my guard down) when the pain gradually moved down to the right side of my abdomen. I was writhing alone trying to endure the pain, but I thought something was wrong there and decided to go to the clinic in the morning. As I called the manager, he suggested me to go immediately, so I went to an emergency hospital.
The diagnosis after having blood and urine tests and a CT scan done was epityphlitis... Well, generally speaking, acute appendicitis.
Maybe some bacteria entered my body and caused the inflammation because I was being too careless, but I’d have never imagined that I would get appendicitis at my age... I heard that age has nothing to do with it, but for some reason...
I feel like I always get some kind of health issue when tours end.
Well, I’m aware that I may be overdoing it a little bit.
I work out on a daily basis, restrict my diet because I easily gain weight, stop drinking alcohol before and during the tour... Everything is for the tour, for every single show. I just think that I need to give my all to get on the stage at my very best on each specific day and, of course, I do all of that for myself.
That said, I want to show the best performance possible at every live since the fans who come to enjoy the show are spending their money and time on us.
It’s just that we spend quite hard days during tours in order to do it.
That’s why I feel like the passion I put into each show has definitely changed a lot if compared to the past.
I don't know how long I’ll be able to perform, and if I become unable to, I want put an end to it in my best form.
When touring with this mindset there is absolutely no live show that can be wasted away, which makes me feel very stable mentally (surprisingly).
So, if the tour is over... I don’t care whatever happens anymore.
Anyways, this time I got to the hospital when the inflammation was in its early stage and I was able to get over it just by taking some medicines, so don't worry about it.
Toshiya